I remember my mother used to always tell me that when she would write in her journal, she would write everything down, tear the page out of the journal, and rip it up. It didn't matter whether her thoughts were sad, angry, or the happiest, she just always made it a priority to make sure she didn't keep it around. I've only done that if I felt that what I said didn't sound right, or if what I wrote made no sense. I never use to think it was that serious. I have kept all of my old diaries and journals from middle school to high school, even the early ones I had when I first started my college journey. Every now and then I go back and read them. When I would read them, I would always laugh and be amazed at what I used to write about, the things that used to bother me, what would cross my mind and how I used to write in general. I like to see my growth and I like to see how my thoughts have changed. I don't think the way I used too and I could always see on paper the phases when things would change.
Now that I have made my way on this new path, I can't say I would want to keep everything now. My thoughts aren't the same. My experiences are more deep. I think that's why I rarely write anything down anymore. I usually write in my notepad on my phone, than after a certain amount of time, I delete all my notes. We as human beings are always changing our way of thinking. We change in general, sometimes for the good and sometimes for the bad. Personally I don't always want the constant memory to continue to linger on, so I choose to get rid of it. I probably would burn my diaries, or simply delete any trace of my written thoughts I wouldn't want anyone to see. I wouldn't have a problem leaving around my old innocent teenage thoughts, I guess it all depends on what I would be burning, and how important it would mean to me if it was left behind for everyone to see.
I can relate to some of the things you wrote in your post, like how you felt about going back to read your old journals and being amazed by what you wrote. I've done that before and most of the time it would make me laugh so incredibly hard. When your younger and you're going through something, at the time it may seem like the most important thing in the world but when you look back on it you realize you made a big deal out of nothing. I keep my journals for this reason because no matter what I'm currently going through they never fail to make me laugh. Great post by the way.
ReplyDeleteI personally reflected with this piece. I enjoy reading about how you connect the dots back to your Mother’s personal habits with journaling; I can see how you learned from what she did. Although, I have stacks of old notebooks in my closet, and a plethora of notes in apps on my phone I agree with your idea of letting go of past work. If I am in a gloomy mood, then I will look through old journals where I wrote about breakups. It can be soothing to reflect on the pain I once had, and see where I am today. If I had to give feedback on this piece- I would ask for more description- I’m interested to know more about your mom and how you came to have a passion for writing. I picture your mother shredding pages of a diary- I wonder if she had a secret life, job, or was a spy or something. You’re writing style is very to the point, and is easy to read. Also, I love the gif, it is a funny picture after prolonged paragraphs.
ReplyDeleteI like this post, the title really caught my attention and the meme at the end fits perfectly with the content. I liked the therapeutic element to journal writing you mention, writing something down can get things off your chest and ripping it up can make you feel better about it. It's not something I've ever personally tried, but I think I would like to.
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